I am reading your words (warm western coffee in hand!) and feeling this profound… gratitude. Reading your post came at just the right time.

I realize there is some uproar around the guru and some lewd behavior.

However, it is the experience you had on your personal journey that is what struck me so.

Thank you for sharing.

Please have the courage to ask some basic questions about Nithyananda. Yes he fooled many including me. Please see this simple video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SNXJ5HtOHEQ

Please have the courage to see it, there is nothing bad in it. Just asks some basic questions about Nithyananda’s life, that the Foundation has been dancing around for months now and hiding. His entire biography is a lie.

Your blog reaches a lot of people. Just see how Nithyananda is acting right now. The way he is handling this situation shows the farce that he is. No courage at all to come out in public and face the situation with courage. So his words were just empty words that enlightened master can face any situation just gracefully. You can see how horrible his handling of this is.

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No comments gets deleted. I’m on maternity leave with my newborn and in the middle of moving, sorry for the delay. I will respond about this soon.

Saw this in the news and decided to report back to you.
Your enlightened guru in a sex scandal.
http://entertainment.oneindia.in/tamil/exclusive/2010/ragasudha-ranjitha-nithyananda-sex-030310.html

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GTaKRNKLg_E&feature=player_embedded

This is where we have to accept that nobody is perfect in this world and i guess not throw out the baby with the bathwater.

Thanks for sharing your experiences. I was considering going to the Inner Awakening program too up until recently. However a friend pointed these two blogs recently and I am deeply conflicted and I feel like there is something weird about Nithyananda.

http://nithyananda-cult.blogspot.com
http://nithyatales.webs.com

I am praying to divine to guide me in the right path. For now though, I am going to stay away from Nithyananda, although I realize your experience was so wonderful.

(please note: that I am actually and sincerely leading up to a major point I NEED to make for the sake of crying out to anyone who might care to help me in this time of serious family crisis)

I have been like the “black sheep” of a fairly successful family! I am proud of my older brother who is in the air force and is an actual F-15 pilot—- and may very well be called to an even more powerful, much newer jet called the F-22. I would love for him to have that WOW kind of opportunity to fly something that I could only dream about the experience of myself! YET I AM NOT FOR WAR or even the cool or fancy new technology behind it all. And this same (4 years older than me) brother named Dave is not the same “Davy” I once fought forest fires with back in 1992 for the U.S.Forest Service which we based our summer out of North Bend Washington state…living for the time behind the “Ranger Station” itself. He has somehow become like an un-emotional kind of stranger to me, but he is also a good father to his own small but growing family!

Indeed, I do love my family even in spite of how they have all seemingly so very often ‘spit on me’ (metaphorically speaking)— looking down on me as being A TOTAL LOSER! This has hurt me, and it was after working in North Bend many summers ago…..that I came down with a stress related illness called Crohn’s disease which I nearly died from, and then had an encounter with a certain SOMEBODY——-(deep breath)—– who was in fact, and in all HONESTY so incredible.. and so totally amazing— (enough to BLOW MY ENTIRE MIND AND HEART WIDE OPEN TO A LOVE THAT I ONLY WISH I COULD PUT INTO WORDS!) and SO SURPRISING TOO…….. and every atom of my entire being seemed to just KNOW who THIS amazing BEING WAS!

And this was years ago….when I experienced the above mind blowing WOW of a very close encounter WITH—– (I will hold back for now, on saying exactly who—– yet only because I feel protective over it and you people…..and this new site (as nice as it really looks to me so far) are still people I do not yet personally know at all! And I at least feel I need “A RESPONCE” from someone else before I go into more details.

But as long ago as this experience was, it changed my entire life forever,,,,and it was not exactly an easy change for me to simply ADJUST TO inside right away. But its taken me several years, hard and hurtful years…..within a family I love…..to come into it or (I should say “grow” into it over the years since!

It was HOLY…..but did not keep me from my addictive self, which is deep rooted in both family lines, and I became an OPIATE ADDICT…..long before I met THIS CERTAIN…..somebody. And YES……it was not like a HAZY LIGHT of LOVE that was formless or like something that we might imagine GOD would be like, as being A SOURCE….. And of course GOD IS THE SOURCE, and we are all products of that FIRST ULTIMATE ETERNAL WELLSPRING……BUT that is not (in my humble own honest opinion) how we should SEE GOD at all. Would you see your own dear best friend or mother or grandparent or someone like that who is special as A SOMETHING or do you prefer to see them as a TRUE SOMEBODY or Some ONE????

I am about to fly to africa to do IBOGAINE which I have been hoping to do for years now, because my family issues and my own physical handi-caps —due to all the past surgeries I had before I met this INCREDIBLE And UNIQUE BEING of which I cannot even remember—-only I remember the story— and how many times I have shared it with friends over the years! BUT DO I REMEMBER HOW IT WAS? I ONLY REMEMBER HOW I DID NOT EVEN NEED TO BREATHE at the time I as experiencing the LOVE which was so personal, and met all the needs of my entire BEING, so much that I could not even feel like I could barely contain such an overwhelming — I MEAN OVERWHELMING LEVEL of LOVE that was not like ANY KIND OF LOVE I had ever imagined possible, yet was experiencing suddenly and unexpectedly out of the blue, just after feeling so very hopeless and wishing I had died— which they were expecting me to only have a 20% chance of NOT dying during the emergency surgery of this which happened in FEB. of 1996l

AND THEN Suddenly, I just finally gave up trying to find an escape from my own self absorbed…..inner misery and restlessness while not even being able to eat or drink anything by mouth, and hooked up to all kinds of tubes, and heart monitors……..and then my mind just suddenly gave up or something, and that is when I remembered in a just kinda……OH YEAH kind of way—– like oh—(causually inside) “I FORGOT about that—–and then SWOOOSH— up…up and UP AND UP…and OH MY GOD—- it was like I was suddenly being launched by a rocket into a realm so unexpected, and OH….SO POWERFULLY OVERWHELMING……and LOVE, magnifying and MAGNYFING AND GROWING, SWELLING UP…all so fast within my entire SOUL……..it took my whole breath away! AND IT DID NOT CEASE or show any sign at all that it was going away, but I continued being on this SUPER FAST…..ROCKET LAUCH to an ecstasy like I cannot even begin to put into words!

I was SOBBING uncontrollably, and literally shaking and all sorts of flooding emotional DAMN BREAKING…….FLOODING over me in tears of which I could not even control at all……….yet these were not just tears….but the richest and sweetest and most real, kind of tears of JOY— mixed with catching my breath and trying so hard to just get a grip on THIS—- unexpected—- HOLY GOD…..I cannot even explain it!

And finally at some point I just ended up, like being real still…….and not even breathing because I was just so much inside “TRYING” simply my best to experience what this was???!!!

And in all my uncontrolled sobbing of of tears…mixed with all kinds of sweet and living emotions………a
down on me, and criticized me for being “a failure” —– all my life…and yes..all of which has hurt me so much inside. (plz do not think I seek pity or any of the usual hatred of insulting, hate………..that seeems to be so often how people even sometimes good friends have inflicted onto me since I as very young. But I must also mention my life has been blessed with the sweetest of blessings, yet all (or most of which) were very much my own….and personal, and yet REAL. As much as I AM REAL…………and I know I am.

I care so much about my MOM….who I now came to realize in the past 7 years or so………that her emotional needs within her marriage have never been truly met,,,and yet I cannot blame it all on my dad either.