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Discover Your Personal Values

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Editor’s Note

When Cat introduced me to Leah earlier this year, she said "Leah is one of the most mindful people I've ever spoken with". After experiencing her work—both written and drawn—I agreed. Take the time to read the story below. It's worth it. One of the most conscious piece of writing I've read. Enjoy!

“At the end of your life” a friend once asked, “What do you hope to have happened?”

I thought it was a great question and decided to give him a thoughtful answer, so I pocketed it for later and bought myself a month for the assignment.

For a while my mind flooded with questions of plot. Will I fall in love? Will I have kids? Will I know passion in my work? Will I touch lives? Will I change the world for the better? What will my regrets be? Where will I have traveled? Where will I have lived?

Will I have really traveled? Will I have really lived?
When I was a kid watching movies, I used to shout during tense scenes, “Ah! What’s gonna happen?” My dad would laugh, “How should I know? I’m watching the same movie you are!” I wasn’t really asking him. But the uncertainty is unnerving.

It’s so tempting to ask questions about how things will turn out, grasping at some kind of assurance in a constantly changing world.

But the answers are not here, not now.

They’re waiting patiently at the end of the story, relaxing in the shade. Probably sipping lemonade. They’re not going anywhere. So perhaps it’s better to let the questions go and just give in to the possibilities.

“Will I this? Might I that?” I let all those questions go, and soon a new question began peaking around the corner of my consciousness.

Rather than asking what life I hoped to live, I began wondering how to live life. The assignment had changed for me, from one of story telling to an inquiry into my own personal values.

Finding My Personal Values

For most of my life, I believe I inherited my personal values from my context. Looking back, I can see that in the years before getting into a good college, the most important thing to me was just that–getting into a good college.

Once at Brown, it was the grades. After graduating, I spent two years working and living, proving my independence to…myself? I think?

And then I came to work at Facebook, a company with deeply embedded and well-articulated values. I believed in the vision and my coworkers, which was enough for me to adopt the values of the company as my own.

Efficiency and leverage became important to me, along with openness, connectedness, and impact. These were the things that kept me up at night.

What should’ve kept me up was my dad’s cancer. He’d been diagnosed sometime while I was in college, but I mostly pretended he hadn’t, because that was easier. I assumed he’d just get better.

But then one day, during my Facebook years, he got worse. X-years-to-live type of thing.

I was tempted to push the news aside again and go back to helping democratize the world’s information (also known as processing my email) when something inside me flipped, snapped, woke up, and sang out.

I saw in an instant that I was living a life on autopilot. I was asleep at the wheel and I had been for… could it be? Forever? So, what do I do now?

That day I put in a request for a six month leave-of-absence, needing space from my own life in order to see it. And to spend time with my parents.

In the two years that followed, I began, super slowly, to start following my own heart. As unpracticed as I was, it often spoke in low tones, gave me mixed messages, or long bouts of silence.

This is still true, but the more I listen, the more I hear. And now that I’ve spent some time living in accordance with my own intuition, I can look back and see a new cohesion take shape, my very own personal values are becoming clear.

And just before I share them, I’d like to add that one result of following my heart is ending up in the presence of amazing teachers and role models. Much of what follows comes directly from what I have learned from them. Big hug. Deep bow.

Value #1: Truth

I can’t presume to know all the manifestations of living a truthful life, but I hope to always live into that question.

One aspect of truth I’ve come to value is the ability to see clearly.

A practical way I’ve learned to see True versus False is through “Is” versus “Isn’t.” I value learning to see what IS.

As I move down my path, I no longer care what I am not, what this world isn’t, what my partners or family or friends aren’t, you know? Rather, who am I? Who are they? What is happening?

Recently a friend stopped emailing me when he got a new girlfriend. My first thoughts were “He isn’t responding”, I’m not as important to him”, “I not being supported” and “I don’t have my close friend anymore.”

It took me a few weeks to let go of what wasn’t happening and see what was. He was falling in love. My hurt and anger had kept me from being happy for him.

And as I began writing for myself each day instead, I was developing my internal support. My sense of loss and indignation had kept me from seeing the growth in myself.

Along with the isnt’s I am also learning to let go of the shoulds and shouldn’ts, the can’ts, didn’ts, weren’ts, and the needs and has-tos.

I’ve also taken on the practice of speaking as truthfully as I can, which has come to include saying not simply whatever is true, but also what is kind, helpful and timely.

Communicating truth is not just to lie or not to lie. Rather, it’s an art.

I can send you a text to tell you I love you. Or I can open my door to you whenever you knock; answer whenever you call; or listen whenever you need. Which is most true?

Recently I heard someone say that speaking truthfully is only half the game, “How truthfully can we listen?” Listen without judgment, without expectation, without interruption, and without planning a response?

Value #2: Self-Love

Until two years ago, I liked myself.

If you’d asked me to swap with anyone I wouldn’t have done it, and I often felt proud of who I was and what I’d done.

But I didn’t LOVE myself. I didn’t LOVE myself as if I was absolutely perfectly wonderfully unconditionally irresistibly lovable.

Like truth-seeking, it may be a journey that lasts my whole lifetime, but these days I’m aggressively committed to honoring myself, my needs, my desires, my tastes, my emotions, my choices, my past, my intentions, my body, my art, my mistakes, my everything.

I hope to honor it all as if there is nothing more important in this world to honor. I (am working to) love myself as if I’m my own child; as if me and myself were the last two people on earth.

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I believe in myself as my very own religion. Not in a way that ranks me above anyone else; but allows for everyone to be their own personal God. I don’t know who said this, but I like this quote, “If everyone healed them selves, the world would be healed.”

My body, my self, this physical being is the way in which I interact in the world. What my body does, how it acts, what it says, what my fingers type, that is the only contact I have with this Universe.

This is my vehicle. This is my tool. This is it. So I need to keep it healthy and happy, and energized. I need to know everything about it. I need to learn to use it as wisely as possible.

This self, it’s the only thing I have, really, so I will love it, worship it, and learn to make it shine as brightly as I know how.

Value #3: Set an Example

While I’m learning to honor and love myself, I try to remain aware of the effect that my actions have on others. I’m healing myself with the desire of healing the world.

So after asking “Is this right for me?” The next question is “What example does this set?” They are deeply related. The answers can’t be separate because nothing is right for me unless it is also right for others to witness.

Sometimes it might feel good to complain or gossip, but what example does that set? We speak a thousand times a day, and each time is an opportunity to say something helpful or harmful.

Sometimes I rush to be first in line, get the best seat, get the best piece, etc., without regard for how that might be affecting others around me.

Quite often I find excuses for living out of line with my personal values. Asking what kind of example I’m setting so often sheds light on the gray areas and helps me pay attention to the broader impact of my actions.

Value #4: Empowerment

The world is. It is what it is.

What good is, “I wish my parents would…” or “the world was…” or “my boss would…” or “my friends this” or “traffic that” or “the weather this” or “anything that?”

The world is what it is.

People are how they are.

I don’t sit around getting annoyed that gravity doesn’t work differently (well, sometimes) because it just IS. So, the world is what it is and I want to live a happy peaceful life.

Really, the only question left: how do I do this? What do I change? Who do I become?

I love this quote: “Feeling resentment is like drinking poison and hoping someone else will die.” Even if I don’t change the world at all, I am empowered to change the feelings and responses I have to it.

Recently, an almost-landlord of mine pulled some weird stuff. I spent a few days feeling angry, and then annoyed, and now I’m almost up to compassion.

I may never meet the guy again, so it’s not for his sake, it’s for mine. Anger feels crappy, like I’m caging an animal inside me. Annoyance is the same, but maybe like a fly instead.

Compassion, however, is like drinking a warm cup of Chai: cozy, sweet, and energizing. It feels great to my insides.

dharma comics perfect

My experience of this life will be the sum of my actions and my reactions, so if I want to live a good life (which I do! I do!) I will cultivate healthy responses. I want to take full accountability for everything that happens to me. I’m not a victim of anything. I am free.

Value #5: Creating What I Crave

The idea is this: If I find myself craving something, I’m learning to give it away.

If I’m lonely, I look for ways to make someone else feel less lonely. If I wish someone loved me, I find someone to love. If I think I’m being wronged, I find a way to apologize. If I want more community in my life, which I do, I will create it.

I believe the clearest sign of what I am meant to cultivate in the world is identifying that which I crave the most. It’s harder than it sounds.

When I walk into the kitchen and see dirty dishes everywhere, you can bet my gut instinct is not to joyfully clean up after everyone. But, that’s how it works. I have two paths to peace in that moment: let go of the irritation, or do the dishes myself.

Understanding that which I crave is actually that which I am best suited to foster. That’s pretty damn empowering.

Value #6: Humor

While sometimes humor can seem like a frivolity, that which comes at the end of a knock knock joke, or after the chicken crosses the road, it must be more.

Humor melts ice. It cuts tension, and lightens the heaviest loads. Humor has the capacity to transform suffering to joy.

Sometimes humor is all that can break down the walls of one perspective, opening up new ways of seeing, which offers us new choices. It can communicate truths that can be easily tuned out in every other way.

I had a teacher who once said that humor puts the “light” in “enlightenment.” I think the reason humor has made it into my set of core values is because I need it to keep the rest in perspective.

We are each, after all, infinitesimal in the span of time. So humor reminds us that while everything is important, nothing is so serious.

Value #7: Love Everyone

I will spend the rest of my life learning to see every person on this planet as lovable as a small child or a cute puppy, and also, as wise as the wisest teacher–as worthy of worship–as my highest value.

Like the rest, this is going to take a while, probably my whole life. But for now, my days are laced with small openings.

I’m proactively choosing to spend time with people who confuse me. I’m spending more time chatting with strangers. I’m spending time with the same homeless people I used to pretend I didn’t see.

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I’m watching children more. And animals. I’m asking more questions. I’m cultivating patience. I want to love everyone not for his or her sake, but for my own.

Loving feels SO good. The beauty here is that the path to loving more, is loving more; the journey and the goal are the same. And so, I practice.

Value #8: Aesthetics

I’ll never forget a conversation I once heard between two friends.

“Why do you do what you do?”

“To maximize the good. And you?”

“Aesthetics.”

I spent years trying to understand this answer. At first, it made no sense whatsoever.

I’d spent my life trying to perform, improve, excel, achieve, each moment fueling the next like my body was on fire and a lake just ahead.

Like the first friend who answered, I lived in a world of right and wrong, where right led to happiness and wrong to suffering. But “aesthetics”? To me that word had only to do with art, and only to do with a single moment in time.

How does that look? How does it make me feel now? Through this friend’s answer I began to see the whole world as a single work of art to be viewed and re-viewed in one discrete moment after the next.

In this framework, our actions are decided not by what we expect to produce the best future outcome, but by what yields more beauty now. And that’s “beauty” in every dimension, not just beauty according to the senses, but as the heart can appreciate it.

In this framework, nothing is about right and wrong, happiness vs. suffering. Actions just result in more or less beauty along an infinite scale.

Last night I was offered a ride and chose to walk home in the rain. Why? Aesthetics. Yesterday, aesthetics guided me to read a book cover-to-cover.

Sometimes we feel called to act in a way that doesn’t make the most logical sense. Later we might see a broader purpose it served, but it’s in following these instincts that we break free from the limits of what we know, and open ourselves up to new possibilities.

I’ve come to see aesthetics as the value I’m honoring when there’s no good reason for doing what I do, but it just feels right. It’s the same force that guides a painter to choose how and where to stroke his brush, and what turns a life from a series of patterns and habits, into a work of art.

Parting Words

I sent all of the above to the friend who asked the initial question, “how do you hope your life to turn out?” And in a letter to him, I ended with this:

I guess this isn’t quite the story of a life you’d want to read, with a climax and denouement. It’s not told from the end as we discussed. There aren’t a lot of specifics or characters. But even without any specifics in place, perhaps this all tells a story anyway.

At the end, this life will have been a journey of perseverance; a century, I hope, of opening to truth and love. I will have cultivated a generous heart, I will have never lost the spirit of fun, I will have loved well, and set an example of love, truth, generosity, beauty, laughter and kindness. I will live and die at peace, confident that I did my very best.”

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Leah Pearlman
About the author

Leah Pearlman is the Co-Creator of The Happiness Institute (HI!) located in San Francisco. HI provides people the space, structure, and support to explore, experience, and expand personal and team happiness in a collaborative environment. She is also the author of Dharma Comics, a comic blog in which she draws on life to explore personal and universal truth. She has a background in technology, most recently having graduated from a 4-year gig at Facebook working both as product manager and in internal communications.

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19 thoughts on Discover Your Personal Values

  1. sonal

    Such a good Article . Thanks for sharing !

  2. Leah,
    Thank you for taking the time to share your thoughts and insights with us. Your emails and your Dharma Comics are the two places I go to now for inspiration and for that quiet reflective moment of the day.
    Warmly,
    Denise

  3. Great article. Thanks for sharing. Yes, it is important that we know our personal values. Many of us live life without reflecting nor knowing what are our personal values and what we stand for, and as a result lose ourselves and our identity, shaped by the societal, corporate norms and values imposed on us.

  4. James S Reed

    99% of my email is trash then this comes along and I find simple and pure joy in reading it. An excellent piece of writing. Touching ideas. Much appreciated. Thank you.

  5. Wow. Deep gratitude for such wisdom and simplicity. So many points here are soul stirring. Thank you Tina for introducing Leah to us. God bless.

    Have a question : there comes a point where we begin to realize our values, but often cannot practice, or the old self’s hold on us is still there. How does one stay mindful and practice ? eg I know I am being judgmental but in some situations I cannot stop. How to move into a place of compassion ?

  6. Great post and good reminder (from one Leah to another, right?) :)

    I have a friend that just turned 40. He said that he’s ready to live life as if he were retired. I immediately thought of my own life. Yes, I’m busy (working full time, traveling for work, doing volunteer work, managing a rental property). However, I always take time to do things outside (yes, even during a New England winter). It makes a big difference. I’ve noticed co-workers that eat their lunch at their desks daily are not as happy. That’s a simple revelation: never leave your desk = suffering.

  7. Leah, this is such an amazing, important post that I’m speechless. All I can say, with heart, is . . .

    Thanks.

  8. this article really answers a lot of the questions i ask myself. or even when i dont know what to ask . thank you :)

  9. This might just be the best blog post I’ve ever read. No joke: ever! It almost seems like too much, way too much, to consume in one sitting. Can I steal some of these?
    It’s all about the stories we tell ourselves. And these are some good rules for writing them.

  10. M

    This is exactly what my heart needed to read. Thank you.

  11. nice articale.I love it.thanks for sharing

  12. “At the end, this life will have been a journey of perseverance; a century, I hope, of opening to truth and love. I will have cultivated a generous heart, I will have never lost the spirit of fun, I will have loved well, and set an example of love, truth, generosity, beauty, laughter and kindness. I will live and die at peace, confident that I did my very best.”

    I like to spice up reading by reading out loud… louder for emphasis, quieter for gravity, and struggling at emotional points… but with this quote at the end, my voice utterly crumbled and disappeared. I might be wrong, but I think this is a moment that has changed my life. I am truly starting to understand the beauty of the journey, and how life can bloom and prosper through that lens.

    Thank you— Leah, Tina, and Cat— from the bottom of my heart for sharing this gem with the world (and me)!

  13. Bob

    It’s funny, because the thing that touched me the most here was that when you try to listen to your heart, you learn to hear it, but when you first try, it’s sometime not clear what it’s trying to tell you, but you just keep listening attentively until you tune in, kind of like finding the frequency of a radio station where you can listen really clearly :-)

  14. Reb

    Your post reminded me of what is important in life. Your words inspire. They are full of wisdom. Thanks for taking me along in your journey by sharing this. Your kindness is much appreciated. We all belong together here. Thanks for extending out your helping hand.

  15. Great article! Most people that end up really hurting in life are only there because they lost their values somewhere along the road. Thanks again.

  16. Shamitsu

    Thank you for such a great article. Its brilliant. I read it 3 times already and i felt moved each time.

  17. Raymond

    This is great, these are all really well thought out values to aspire towards. I like the bit about “Understanding that which I crave is actually that which I am best suited to foster. That’s pretty damn empowering.” I completely agree 100% :)

  18. matt

    Who cares what will have happened at the end of your life? It’ll be in the past – move on.

  19. Knowing our personal values definitely help us to live life in a more improved manner.

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