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Surrender to Emotional Pain

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We’ve all heard the popular eastern mantra: we create our own pain, in our minds. Yet, when it comes down to daily living, we still do that which contradicts what we say we want – we continue to willingly inflict pain upon ourselves.

Despite being an advocate and devoted “preacher” of this message, I too subject myself to this self-inflicted pain, and suffer from its fallout.

For the past few months, I have been drifting in-and-out of an unconscious and anxious state of mind over the anticipated conclusion of an unresolved situation. My mind dwelled on the uncertain nature of the situation, and would not let go of the self-depleting thoughts that were creating a lot of pain and negativity within my inner space – uneasiness, resentment, anger and hatred. Suffice it to say that my inner peace had been stirred up into an unpredictable storm.

I am happy to report that the event did finally come to a conclusion, and it ended in my favor. Now I’m struggling a little with the conflicting feelings of shame, for having been angry and spiteful, and feelings of gratitude for having experienced these emotions and learning from them.

While analyzing and extracting the lessons learned, I saw that pain and our reactions to it come to us in a familiar pattern. Unless we take some proactive measures to interrupt this pattern, we will forever be enslaved to the whim of some external circumstance that is beyond our control.

When faced with tough life situations, what can we do to handle them while minimizing any disturbances to our emotional wellbeing? This is the focus of discussion in this article.

What Causes Emotional Pain?

Anxiety, worry and stress have similar triggers, in that there is an event happening in the future with an unknown result, and we are scared of what that result will be. We start to imagine the worst case scenario and then fear sets in and instills in us a state of anxiety that keeps us fixated on that scenario.

Thoughts and imagery of future pain begin to overflow our mental space. As a result, we experience the pain now, simply from the idea of potential pain in the future.

Recall the last time you experienced worry and anxiety. Perhaps it was this morning, or yesterday. What were you thinking about? Was it over some possible, future, or unresolved event? Were you imagining a scenario of things going badly? I’m going to guess that you were likely pondering the uncertainties surrounding some future event, and vivid images of worst case scenarios were tormenting your mental space.

Maybe you were nervous about the future status of a relationship, and thoughts of being alone scared you and triggered a series of emotions. Maybe you were stressed out about the completion of a work project, and thoughts of losing your job disturbed you. Maybe you were anxious over an investment decision, and thoughts of losing money caused you distress. Maybe you were bothered to find out that someone didn’t like you, and thoughts of abandonment and friendship lost agitated you.

Dramatic life challenges aside, what’s interesting to observe is that our mind goes out of its way to create problems, even when everything else is peachy. Even when nothing is wrong, we start to create problems in our head, and through thought repetition, become convinced that the problems exist.

 

My Story of Pain

In light of protecting the identities of the parties involved, I will keep the details of the situation private. I will share with you what I’ve experienced and what I’ve learned. I will refer to it as the situation from this point forward.

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Photo by Sara Lando of Silvia. See more of her work on flickr.

It’s actually killing me a little not to share the details with you, but it is necessary in order to respect the privacies of others. All I can say is that the situation involved the law, money and personal feelings.

Anyway, the situation lasted for 5 months, most of which was a waiting game, during which I was regularly lost in a confusing train of thought accompanied by blame, resentment, and pain. I’ve visited more dark places within myself during these months than I ever knew existed.

The feeling of hatred I was experiencing both surprised me and ashamed me. I felt lost, I felt disconnected, and I was constantly bothered by the flow of negative energy. I hated feeling this way, yet I continued to allow myself to experience the pain with passionate intensity.

I had conjured up, in my mind, a story of unfairness. With this, I was able to justify my feelings of blame and hate. The story ran through my mind often, and the more I thought of it, the more passionate I became on the topic, and the more intensely I experienced the emotions. In short, in an unconscious state, I had managed to absolutely convince myself of the inevitability of something that didn’t actually exist.

There are always at least two sides to every story, but in an unconscious state, we passionately choose one side and attach ourselves to it. Of course, if I were to ask the other people involved, they too would give you a side of the story that demonstrated unfairness towards them and their interests. After all, when feelings are hurt and pride is on the line, the easiest thing to do is to find a villain to absorb the blame. Where the ego’s concerned, it’s always a losing battle.

I was deeply distracted, had a hard time focusing on the good, and had trouble sleeping. Part of me knew that everything was going to be fine, but part of me wouldn’t let go of the attachment to pain. That part of me couldn’t stand that I couldn’t do anything but wait, and so in a desperate state, grasping for control of something… anything to hold onto…., it created problems to keep itself alive. I became deeply addicted to problems and pain.

What’s worse, during this self-inflicted and nonproductive time of stress, I had forgotten to focus on, appreciate, and celebrate the miracles that had appeared during this time: I had found love and he proposed marriage.

The Realizations

Looking back on the experience and its conclusion, everything now appears to be so clear and simple. Some good did come out of the experience, however, I feel frustrated with myself for having wasted so much time and energy in dwelling on conjured up negativity.

It’s true, hindsight really is 20-20. We can’t change the past, but we can choose to extract the lessons learned and move on with dignity and hope for the future.

Here are some things I’ve realized and learned:

  • All challenges are there to teach us a lesson. But we are conditioned to treat challenge as a bad thing. Challenge is our friend, embrace it!
  • We experience what we put out. When we experience and express a feeling towards someone, we ultimately are the receiver of that feeling. When we express anger towards someone else, we feel the pain. When we hold a grudge against someone, our own inner space suffers. Next time you express an emotion, take notice in how it makes you feel on the inside.
  • Every day, there are miracles happening all around us, yet, in a state of deep unawareness, we fail to see them. Even the happiest of events, can be diluted when we’re consumed with problems.
  • Our minds are naturally and automatically attracted to problems. Even when everything else is going well, our mind looks for conflicts, issues, differences and problems. We can’t handle how happy we actually are, and how there’s really nothing to be worried about. Without problems, our ego has nothing to cling to.
  • All problems are rooted in our interpretation of an external circumstance. Thus, all problems are really created in our heads. They don’t actually exist, except in our own projection of a tale we have convinced ourselves of and believe to be true.
  • We suffer, unnecessarily, in advance of an anticipated outcome or event. Nothing has happened yet, but because we have imagined the worst case scenario in our mind, we become afraid of what might happen. As a result, we suffer in advance of a possible scenario that may or may not take place in the future.
  • There is nothing we can’t handle, even death. It doesn’t matter how much suffering we endure ahead of time, when the anticipated event happens, it happens, and we move on. The actual event is rarely as bad as we had anticipated. We are stronger than we think.

In the end, I realized that the magnitude of the emotional ride I had experienced was necessary for me to recognize that this happens every day, only on a much smaller scale.

Every single day, there are opportunities to create new problems or intensify existing problems, and we often choose to do this despite our deep knowingness that we are really happy, and can be really happy with what we already have.

Every single day, we are faced with opportunities to choose pain over joy, but we become flustered with the many mental distractions, become unaware, and fall prey to the impulsive pulls of our ego.

Every single day, we have the choice to choose between problems and no problems. It’s the meaning we give to something that defines how we feel about that thing.

Every moment of every day, we have choices. We always have choices.

We can choose to see the good in people and circumstances.
We can choose to give love and compassion.
We can choose to smile.
We can choose to take responsibility.
We can choose to surrender to the moment.
We can choose to change ourselves.
We can choose to focus on things we enjoy.
We can choose to take action.
We can choose happiness.

 

Parting Thoughts

After our salsa class on Sunday, Jeremy and I went into a little French bakery that we frequent for our weekly dose of a fresh croissant and an organic latte. We couldn’t help but to notice a sweet older women sitting alone one table down, with her back to us.

She must have been at least ninety years old. She was impeccably dressed in a freshly-pressed navy suit-dress, stockings and a black & white checkered scarf. She wore lipstick, eye-liner and had a grey purse to match her grey tweed coat.

I sat there in admiration of her for carrying herself with so much class. While so many others her age are waiting for their death, she got dressed up on a Sunday afternoon, put on lipstick, and continued to enjoy the wonders of what life can offer – in the form of a sinfully delicious French bakery.

While sitting there elegantly enjoying her lentil soup, she had accidentally spilled some water on the table and onto her beautifully pressed clothing. It took her a few seconds to realize, before she looked around the tiny café in embarrassment.

For a fraction of a second, I felt her embarrassment and loneliness, and tears started rolling down my cheeks. I looked over at Jeremy, and tears had already welled up in his eyes too.

In that moment, I felt like I was her and I had lived a life filled with varying experiences and moments of deep joy and love. And in that moment, seeing all my current problems from that perspective, I realized that they are pretty insignificant compared to what really matters most – love, and the need to celebrate the miracles of life.

Life is precious. Choose how you want to experience it, intentionally and consciously.

When in doubt, take a few minutes, close your eyes and focus on your breath. Imagine yourself at 98 years old sitting in a rocking chair in a beautiful and peaceful setting. You have lived a full and long life. Imagine all the significant moments of joy you’ve experienced, and all your proud accomplishments during your long life. See them vividly. Now, think of the problems you are currently troubled by in your life as a young lad or lass, do they still bear the same weight?

 

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69 thoughts on Surrender to Emotional Pain

  1. I identify with you so much Tina. You have the gift of being able to describe precisely your feelings and have enough insight to gather conclusions from the way you feel. I admire you.

    I like what you say about choices, it took me a long time to realize ‘m the only one responsible for when problems arise.

    also agree with the Platonic view, that we only see what we perceive. And that our brains are attracted to problems.

    All around, a great post Tina (like all of them ;) ).
    Thank you so much!

  2. Rekindle and deepen your meditation practice and all of this will vanish. What remains will be clear understanding. From there you can take right action.

    The drama can be so powerful it becomes addictive to some people — as can the cathartic surrendering and immersing oneself into it to emerge on the other side. If a person has the desire and ability to advance in meditation, they can reach understanding of situations before they become painful and the curtain rises on the drama.

    The solutions are within us even before we experience the problems.

    Just a thought :)

  3. I have also experienced a “situation” which left me completely enslaved by emotion for over a year…It was all I talked about, thought about, and dealt with emotionally. Finally, I came out of it a much stronger person, and I vowed never to let one aspect of my life control everything else so completely. I have learned to compartmentalize my life, and enjoy the parts that are going well!

  4. You found love and he proposed marriage???
    I am really happy for you!

    The first thing I do when I encounter myself feeling ashamed about how I am feeling is create distance – from what I think is the source of the problem. And then I give it a week. Usually, by then, my mind starts to unconsciously sort things out for me …

    I dislike being in dark places where I cannot seem to respect myself.

  5. Thanks for this. I’ve had a few of those sudden overwhelmed-by-empathy-with-a-complete-stranger moments myself, and they are always powerful experiences.

  6. I really loved your story about the old lady. Very heart warming! Thanks for sharing!

  7. You always find a great way to make your articles from a personal perspective, which makes the stories and advice more realistic and interesting. Great job!

  8. “When faced with tough life situations, what can we do to handle them while minimizing any disturbances to our emotional wellbeing?” ~ Tina

    Hi Tina,

    I don’t know your situation and I respect your privacy. All that said (maybe some synchronicity too) I’m currently in a situation without a job and pursuing my dream and on some occasions have thoughts of nervousness and excitement at the same time.

    Bob Proctor says that if you have a goal and you aren’t excited and scared at the same time then it is not a big enough goal. I’m not sure if this has to do with you or not.

    But more importantly, I’ve lived by some words that came from the author of the book YOU2, Price Pritchett.

    Price says,

    “A quantum leap, by definition, means moving into uncharted territory with no guide to follow. You personally draw the map as you go.

    Look at it this way – you’re not supposed to be concerned about what happens in the middle of a jump – you’re supposed to be thinking about where you’re going to land!”

    Food for thought,

    “”

  9. “When faced with tough life situations, what can we do to handle them while minimizing any disturbances to our emotional wellbeing?” ~ Tina

    I don’t know your situation Tina and I respect your privacy. All that said (maybe some synchronicity too) I’m currently in a situation without a job and pursuing my dream and on some occasions have thoughts of nervousness and excitement at the same time.

    Bob Proctor says that if you have a goal and you aren’t excited and scared at the same time then it is not a big enough goal. I’m not sure if this has anything to do with your situation or not.

    More importantly, I’ve lived by some words that came from the author of the book YOU2, Price Pritchett.

    Price says,

    “A quantum leap, by definition, means moving into uncharted territory with no guide to follow. You personally draw the map as you go.

    Look at it this way – you’re not supposed to be concerned about what happens in the middle of a jump – you’re supposed to be thinking about where you’re going to land!”

    Food for thought,

  10. I like how you said we experience what we put out. When I’m angry that is felt by me. I’m creating that emotion and letting it wreak havoc on my mood.

    Life is precious and it’s up to us to create the life we want. We can’t blame anyone, but our own inability to make our lives glorious.

  11. Like what you’ve concluded, I believe it all boils down to choices. It is almost inevitable that we will go through positive and negative experiences in life. With the negative experiences, do we view them as learning opportunities or do we wallow in self-pity, blame and misery? If we decide to use the negative experiences as learning lessons, we are better able to create a more empowered way to live from this day forward.

    I’m glad to know that you’ve made a wise choice. Take care!!

  12. I loved your list of choices… sometimes we get so caught up in the little gritty details and problems, like you said. Just looking over your list is enough to pull us right out of there! We have choices, we just need to remember we do.

    The story of the lady at the French bakery was so sweet. My grandmother still dresses up every morning to go meet her friends for breakfast, and so do my boyfriend’s grandparents. I think changing our perspectives is also a great way to see that our current problems are nothing in the face of time.

  13. Hi Tina,

    I admire your deep understanding of your own feelings and the ability to write about them eloquently. The story about the old lady was really sweet. When I’m 98, I want to be like her. Thanks for sharing!

  14. Heya Tina! Yet another timely article here.

    I just failed my exams 2 days ago, while it was also one day later where I had to go for a meeting, writing some greeting cards, and I happened to see a friend during a window shopping trip alone. Dang, I sure had to make a choice to surrender to pain and get on up back to a positive state pretty quickly!

    You are right on at the ending with the choices that we have to make and how we can look at a certain situation in a different angle. :)

    Thumbs up for this post here. Thanks!

  15. Hi Tina, I like the point when you outlined about all problems are rooted in our interpretation of an external circumstance. I am absolutely agree with your thought.
    “One most recent study states that 93% of the things we worry about, do not actually exist, only 7% do. And of the existing real problems, some are beyond our capabilities to deal with. Thus why should you worry about things you can do nothing about?”
    I pick that saying from the last article of my blog (3 Ways to Strengthen Perseverance)

    Great article Tina, thanks for sharing.

  16. Hi Tina,

    “All challenges are there to teach us a lesson.”

    This is definitely true. Everything in life happens for a reason and the lesson only end after we learned it. Life is funny in a way that whenever we did not learn the lesson that it threw at us, it will throw us the same lessons again and again until we learn from the lesson.

    Cheers
    Vincent
    Personal Development Blogger

  17. I enjoyed reading this, very nice article. I know how it feels to be anxious about something that hasn’t happened yet and over-thinking it. It is counter-productive and depletes energy.

    It definitely helps to remember that it’s all in the head and that life will go on whether we choose pain or the joy. So might as well choose joy!

    Thanks Tina!

  18. Hi Tina,

    This is really hitting home for me right now. I have just been racking my brain over a current situation in life that is causing me some unhappiness and that has no quick solution. It involves money and feelings. Hopefully it won’t involve lawyers but its pretty serious.

    And you know what? If I look at the rest of my life I have a lot of good things going! Nothing as great as a marriage proposal but darn near close.

    So I say all that to say thank you. Your words really help brighten my day and help me to look at things differently!

    Cheers,
    Jeremy

  19. Martin

    Hi Tina,

    Excellent piece which I totally relate to at the moment. I’m going through a nasty emotional separation and am constantly trying to stay positive, think of the longer term serenity that WILL come, but at every turn I can’t seem to rid myself of the frustration of negativity. I guess it’s still early days (7 months) and on good days my old self comes back, only to be derailed again. Even tho’ my NLP training tells me to minimise the bad stuff and magnify the positive vision, I’m still struggling to move on. If anyone has any ideas please let me know!

  20. Eva Spisiakova

    Hi Tina,

    I found your blogs a few weeks ago and I literally bless the day I stumbled upon them. With your honest and very true thoughts about the world, you make my life, together with another blogs I started to read, more and more beautiful every single day.

    I liked this particular article very much, since I was at my dentist today, and altough I was tempted to worry about the pain for a month before, I have tried to think of the positive outcome. And – it worked! I was able to smile even sitting in the fearful chair.

    Apologizes for my english, I´m not a native speaker. (I am from a little Europe state named Slovakia)

    Looking forward for the next entry!

    Eva

  21. It’s very overwhelming when presented with a seemingly unsolvable problem – much easier to think about how difficult it is rather than thinking about the solutions.

    The problem is the human brain can hold 6 maybe 7 things in active memory at once. More than that and things start to fade and don’t get as much attention focused on them as they should.

    It is hard to see the “big picture” some times, so instead just reduced it down to one thing “I know there is a big picture out there, even if I’m not aware of it right now”

    Patrick

  22. Gil

    There is no doubt in my mind that this article alone would help alleviate, if not completely eradicate, a great deal of pain, misery, and suffering in this world. Good job, grasshopper. “You are the greatest world hero!”

    We all are in each of our own universe.

  23. Jenna

    Hi. thanks for your post. your blogs are great
    who are you?? are you male.. female?
    im so intrigued
    but
    anyway keep up the good work

    ************************
    REPLY

    Hi Jenna,

    I am female. You can read more about me here:
    http://thinksimplenow.com/about-tina

    Warmly,
    Tina

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